That has to be up there with the most negative blogpost titles you will ever read from me. I am an optimist in nearly every situation I come across. If you give me a glass that is half full, I marvel at the endless ways in which it could become overflowing! However… When you unknowingly jam your 1 year old’s finger in the door of your bathroom, there is no way singing Monty Python’s “Always look on the bright side of life” is ever going to make you feel better!
I have had some lovely people share their similar experiences and there is some comfort in knowing that I am not the first to have this happen… But at the end of the night, one of the 3 people I love most in the world is wriggling beside me in a hospital cot, and I kinda put her there.
Does this mean I can wallow!? Well… I COULD… But I’m not gonna and I will tell you why…
As I sit and belt this out on my iPhone… A little bandaged hand is resting on me… A little girl is now laying on her dad, woozy with a mix of tiredness and newly ingested Pamol… and all she is going to remember of this day is that he held her every step of the way! Thanks to a friend for reminding me of that!
When the accident happened I burst into tears at the mere thought I had done something that caused my little girl such a huge amount of pain… That was fine for a time… But what is going to help her most is her Dad rising to the challenge of helping her get through this. In the morning she will be out of my hands for a while as the plastics specialists work miracles… When they are finished the “Loving Chloe” specialists can take over… And that is when me and my family can make this into something worth being positive about! Oh… And I made the point on bookface this afternoon that because it is the middle finger of her hand, I am sure she will readily remind me of this in years to come!!!